What Lies Beneath.....

Listen to the songs I sang to you
Listen to them in your heart
Thus time lead us apart
It'll just be some moment depart
And these songs will be cheering your little heart
Little Princess...
Don't shut those shining eyes
Don't wipe away the sweet curve on that adorable face
I'm still here for you and feel your embrace
Look at me...
This smile is only for you
Keep casting those fear you have
I'll put them away like I always do
Princess...
You are the colours on my rainbow
The light from my sun
The shine from my stars
You are my only sweet Honey...
...and you will always belong in my heart

6:14 pm
5 June 2009

                Alhamdulillah, I have turned 25 few days ago and for this life I’m on loan, I thank Allah for entrusting me and blessing me endlessly.

                 Somehow, this birthday was a special one. It was known as my last one. As how it was called or named, it was still a memorable one. Since I was a kid, I have never had a birthday party, not even once. I don’t have any grudge or anything since I don’t really favor being in the center of attention. Still, I enjoyed the surprises (I love surprises!) and appreciate the gifts. Oh yeah, I’m not a cake fan too. I would prefer my candles to be on a large pepperoni and cheese (double-extra cheese!!) hehe..guilty pleasure!

Remembering the old times, back in KYS, we have traditions on most of things there, especially when it comes to celebrations. As for birthdays, the ladies of 9701 would be wearing the same colour of baju kurung for prep and notes on locker. Oh yeah, at midnight, we would surprised the birthday girl with shampoo and a pail of water. That was fun!

                 Anyways, back at home, we started to celebrate each birthday according to month. Well, February is the month where most of the members were born. Mi & K Nini share the same date (3^rd), Abg Man (13^th), Abg Helmi (20^th) and myself…not forgetting, the  two princesses, Zulaikha (12^th) and Anisa (10^th). So, 

HAPPY BIRTHDAY..MAY ALLAH BLESS!

               Nothing can be more meaningful than to have someone you love around you. I'm so thankful for everyday that i keep on realizing that there are so many people who love and care. Sometimes, you can get hurt by one person and the world is tumbling down. Crying and crying asking for the pain to leave and regretting of that past. Until, you open your eyes and heart and listen to the words of those who really care...so...that one person just not worth it! .....sometimes.....you still need to cry when it does hurt!

Well then, hoping for nothing much but happily ever after....One thing for sure...you forget about Him, He'll definitely forget you too...That's for sure!

Thank You for the wishes and celebration...to you..yes you...love you! My Atih, Tim & Sal, thank you for being here, great timing, i must say.. Then to my beloved family-my darling parents and my sweethearts brothers and sisters... Definitely, my angels....nephews and nieces!!! I LOVE YOU!!

...life goes on...

                         School started on Tuesday this week. So, i missed one day with the kids. However, things were just the same. same routine but new things i taught. But they were still the charmed ones. These pictures were taken when they were waiting for their transport. Aren't they adorable?! They are cheeky too! Once they had an I-Clay class and they made tiny little snake each. I don't know how and why, but it was me they wanted to 'show' their art work. So, yeah, Teacher Farah hid and just about time they had to go..sorry kids!! Wrong teacher!hehehe..                             

                        Well, it has been almost 2 months and of course, no more cry babies. Infact, they love to jump out from the car once they arrive. The girls with pony tails and everyday, they will use different hair clips, hair band and one thing for sure, it must be PINK! some will even come to school with their Princess crown! The boys? Just simple and handsome. Some will wear something else inside. Why? Once the clock strikes 11:30 am, they will take the shirt off, and here comes super heroes and aliens in school! Ultraman...Ben 10... are the favourite o
                            So, i stopped watching my Grey and other movies coz i just got distracted by these cartoon characters. Whenever my Prinsez Tihani's back for the weekend, we will watch all Disney's Princesses...fuhh....
                         I'm glad....alhamdulillah.....because of these angels, life is less horrid. You can be moody and sad but once they are around, you'll smile... Atleast, to me! I can't imagine life without them... They are really the greatest gift of all!

P/s: Have a great weekend kiddos...see you next week

...life goes on...

           Nothing is more precious than to have children in your life. They are the one who can really put spells on you. But if it doesn't work on you...too bad! What about having your own child? Hmmm...can't tell actually since i don't experience it myself. Well, having 4 wonderful married sisters, plus 1 sister inlaw, i can see how your life can be so precious and priceless..( Prayers for lil angle, growing in his/her mom...we are as exciting waiting for you, sweetie!)
           On the 10th of this wonderful month (hehe..), Prinsez Anisa was born at 11:45 pm! She was supposed to wait til the 20th or 21st maybe (hehehe...) but guess you just couldn't wait huh? Well, us too Prinsez! Especially your cuties sibs, welcoming the 6th of course!

Alhamdulillah, Anisa is healthy and adorable!!! Look at that chubby cheek! Just like Che Teh's..hehe..(yeah, iknow she's not mine).. Prinsez Anisa, Welcome!

Little Precious Prinsez...

Sweet little prinsez,
Here you are
On this love month of February
You're finally here and
         oohh..
                  you're just so lovely!

If only angels like you can speak
Tell the world your little story
About your sweet little homey
How you watch your little fingers grow
                    ..and that adorable little toes
What about that chubby little cheek?
Was it a little something of your trick?
So dear, if only you can share

But eyes can see
How lovely and precious she is
Love will be your pillow
So you will never feel bit sorrow
Dear Sweet Precious Prinsez...
                 
12th February 2009
6:21 pm

Love You Anisa..

 

  

Listen

Where are the birds?

Why aren’t they chirping?

Syyy…I couldn’t hear anything

They are crying too loud

Please, make them stop

 

Don’t you know?

They made them cry!

 

Who?!

 

Them!

With that thing their holding on tight

With that dirty hands they have

Without any feeling of sympathy, no mercy,    …no compassion!

 

Don’t fight!

If it’s to end a life and suffer those kids

It’s their mummies and daddies

…brothers and sisters!

It’s their home!

 

Don’t fight!

If it’s to show how strong you are…we know…they know…you know

But you’re afraid

You’re hiding behind those rocks

And you hurt them

They were just playing

 

Look at the smile

Innocent, kind and naïve

You shouldn’t hurt them

You shouldn’t hurt the world

You should heal them

We must heal the world!

 

 

6:15 pm

19^th November 2008

~Presented by Ziddan, Fiqri and Imanina at The Living Classrooms Concert 2008~

...life goes on...

 

 Stars glitter the dark, dark sky

That’s when chores all done

Mind shuts of thinking

Words have enough said

Silky satin embrace by the touch

Softness of dreams has yet to come

Hear the ballad, have sense of the tune

Close the eye and sail with the moon

~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~

No birds chirping at the time like this

Even owl has never been seen

Such an emotion that breaks the night

With these tears seem to shed from it

A dream of none ever wishes

A story of many twinges

Why came back?

Why return?

Should have past and be gone

So end……go away……

 

12:02pm

31^st January 2009

life goes on....

 

A month delay to wish ‘Happy 2009’…well then…Happy New Year and Salam Muharam!

Salam…

The typical Amani has finally updated her blog…here goes…

2008 has finally ended and here comes 2009. Sad to say, I hate the first half of that year! Be honest, sometimes, even horrible things can be bearable, but some things can haunt you. I hate the ‘bad dreams’ in 2008, which I’ll carry forward for the rest of my life….forever??? But I really learnt a lot from what had happen and with Allah’s blessing, I hope I’ll be fine. HOWEVER, that year began with a wonderful thing which I didn’t think it would turn out to be the cause of my happiness today. As how it started, although with the bumps and aches, towards the end, Allah granted me His blessings. Alhamdulillah…Definitely a real wonderful start for me for 2009…..

Once upon a time….

Well, for the first time ever, I celebrated my New Year away from home. Together with my beloved family…not all 26…just 71/2 of us, we went to Jakarta! It was fun though. The dark sky was filled with bright and interesting fireworks which started as early as the sunset. Imagine how the sky would be once the clock stroke 12 midnight…unbelievably amazing. That was my second time in Jakarta and I would love to go again and again. hehe!

So as for a little update on me, hmm…of course I’m proudly to say I’m working now. Alhamdulillah…Well, it has been few months since I completed my studies (finally…) I am now a Kindergarten Teacher in SS 1, specifically I’m teaching English and reading for the 3 to 6 years old. Nowadays, kindergartens have changed! Last time I remember came home with new song everyday. Well, that was what I remember about my kindy life, sing songs, recite prayers (I was in Islamic kindy before I changed to not-so-islamic kindy..hehe), sing songs again, makan, made friends, etc. There were still some writings but real simple ones and more colouring. Now, teachers have big shelf to arrange the students’ books accordingly. For my class, I have reading book of 2 levels (book 1-8 for each level), exercise books 1 & 2, reading record books and handwriting practice books. I do have some extra fun books for the kids. Well, you can’t help it when they have mood swing and suddenly decide not to write. So, that’s English. We have other subjects like Mathematics, BM, Agama, Montessori, General Knowledge, Science and Music and Movement. So you guess how many books the kids have. Don’t worry, this is not torturing. Kids nowadays are fast learners and they are eager to learn. At the end of the day, we still have fun and they are happily to be back the next day. There’s this one girl who came back for her 2^nd year and her mom told us (teachers) how she misses her friend on school break last December. She ended up sleeping at night wearing school uniform and her hair was tied side tails like how she did every time she came to school. Adorable…

Fun?! Oh definitely, every day I came home with funny stories I shared with my nieces and family. After this, I will start sharing with you!Insya Allah ;p I love with what I’m doing. It’s not easy to teach little kids actually and having lots of patience is fundamental. But the most important thing is, you are happy with what you are doing. Atleast, that’s what I believe in…

I guess that’s all for now…May you will have a bless year and many, many happiness every months, weeks and days….Amin.

...life goes on...

 

“ Kalau nggak ada Sungai Nil, pasti nggak ada Mesir, nggak ada peradaban. Yang ada hanya gurun pasir…itu jodoh”

 

If you have read or watched `Ayat-ayat Cinta’, you will definitely have the idea of my Fahri. I just started reading the novel but I’ve watched the movie. I’ve watched my Fahri for 3 times. My Fahri in the story belongs to Maria, a qibthi and Aisha, a true muslimah. You have to know the story to understand my Fahri.

 

My Papa is my Papa. Love of my life. My Papa is brilliant. The way he thinks, he talks, he leads, the way he brought up all 7 of us, the way he brings himself and the way he loves. My Papa belongs to Nik Nooraini, my Mi, for 41 years now.

 

“…kalau tidak ingat, bahwa keberadaanku di kota seribu menara ini adalah amanat. Dan amanat akan dipertanggungjawabkan dengan pasti. Kalau tak ingat, bahwa masa muda yang sedang aku jalani ini akan dipertanyakan kelak. Kalau tak ingat, bahwa tidak semua orang diberi nikmat belajar di bumi para nabi ini. Kalau tidak ingat, bahwa aku belajar di sini dengan menjual satu-satunya sawah warisan dari kakek. Kalau tidak ingat, bahwa aku dilepas dengan linangan airmata dan selaksa doa dari ibu, ayah dan sanak-saudara.”

 

Fahri, Indonesian yang menuntut di Al-Azhar, Cairo. Luarannya seakan pemuda biasa yang simple, humble dan lembut perbicaraannya dan tingkah lakunya. Fahri dihormati di atas keperibadiannya dan ilmu yang dimilikinya. Dikagumi akhlaknya serta his good look is being adored by many muslimah. However, kaum Hawa adalah yang digeruni olehnya. Fahri amat menghormati kaum ini, his colleagues, bondanya, dan Maria. Even so, as he has completed his aims, there was only one task he needed to complete or maybe a wish he wished to achieve…iaitu, bernikah!

Fahri merasakan sangat rumit untuk memilih bidadari yang bakal menemani hidupnya buat selamanya…and so…

 

Papa, anak jati Kelantan, yang berkelulusan Master dari Al-Azhar, Cairo. From the pictures I’ve seen, Papa memang tidak kurang hebatnya, and needless to say about his excellent achievement in education. Sebelum kembalinya Papa ke tanahair, on one summer holiday, July 1965, Papa went to Macca to spend his holiday with his father . To his surprise, Papa dicadangkan supaya berkahwin dengan gadis Arab keturunan Patani yang menetap di Jabal Kubis. Papa merupakan seorang yang tekun dan tahu priority hidupnya. Perasaan untuk maju jauh menguasai diri sehingga tiada ruang untuk memikirkan soal perempuan, apalagi berkawan. Papa kata, `takut’… Surat diutuskan dari pihak gadis Arab itu tanda persetujuan. Papa hanya menurutkan saja namun, kesudahannya berbeda. Gadis berketurunan Patani itu menetap di Mekah, maka, diturutkan permintaan bonda tercinta, lebih elok sekiranya bidadari yang bakal menemani hidup Papa selamanya, adalah yang berdekatan asal usulnya.

 

`Sesungguhnya pengetahuan Allah itu Maha Besar dan mencakupi seluruhnya. Kehendak dan KuasaNya mengatasi segala-galanya.’

 

So what’s with my Fahri?

 

“Memiliki istri solehah adalah dambaan…aku gambel kotor dan dia bidadari tanpa noda.”

 

Fahri pernah ditanya, seandainya bisa dia menerima muslimah bukan dari Indonesia. Maka jawabnya, semuanya mudah jika dia gadis solehah. Namun, permintaan bonda di desa,

 

“Jika istrimu nanti mau diajak hidup di Indonesia, tidak terlalu jauh dari ibu, maka menikahlah dan ibu merestui, ibu yakin akan penuh berkah. Tapi jika tidak bisa dibawa ke Indonesia tidak usah, cari saja gadis solehah yang dari Indonesia.”

 

Sesungguhnya, tiada yang lebih bermakna dari doa, harapan dan restu seorang ibu buat anaknya. Hiba perasaan keduanya, mengingati amanat dan kata-kata seorang ibu yang jauh di kampung halaman. Keegoan seorang lelaki bukan lagi persoalannya bila hati nurani terusik dan dititiskan air mata rindu, kasih dan sayang buat bonda yang tercinta.

 

“…aku tak akan menghulurkan tangan kepada seorang gadis kecuali gadis itu yang menarik tanganku…Bukan suatu keangkuhan, tapi karena rasa rendah diriku yang selalu menggelayut di kepala…aku adalah lumpur hitam.”

 

 “…hati tersangkut, tetapi sedikit gobar… saya adalah orang kampung…sedangkan dia seorang gadis moden…”

 

 

Sesungguhnya, Allah yang menentukannya. Lumpur hitam mahupun orang kampung ditetapkan menjadi makhluk yang dianugerahi kenikmatan cinta, rindu dan bidadari putih suci bernama Aisha dan Nik Noorani. Sudah tertulis jodohnya buat my Fahri dan Papaku. Sekembalinya Papa ke tanah air, Papa dipertemukan dengan jodohnya, Nik Nooraini…bondaku.

 

Fahri memiliki kisah hidupnya. Papa bercerita tentang susah peritnya. Tiada bedanya antara my Fahri dan Papaku. Teguh imannya dan molek peribadinya. Janji ditepati, amanat dituruti, bahagia dimiliki. Tiada Papa, tiadalah Mi…tiada Mi, tiadalah Nini, Wani, Wadi, Nani, Wahdani, Amani dan Hamdi. 

 

“Kamu percaya pada jodoh Fahri?”

“Ya, setiap orang memiliki…”

“…jodohnya masing-masing. Itu yang selalu kamu bilang. Aku rasa Sungai Nil dan Mesir, itu jodoh. Senang ya, kalau kita bisa bertemu dengan jodoh yang diberikan Tuhan dari langit.”

“Bukan dari langit Maria, tapi dari hati…dekat sekali.”

 

My Fahri adalah fantasi dan Papaku adalah realiti. Jodohku, juga realiti. Sekiranya tertulis olehNya, direstui bonda dan ayahanda, maka aku terima dengan penuh kesyukuran.

I shall have my own Fahri…InsyaAllah!

 

 

 

Hati ini mungkin tidak seteguh Sumaiyah, Jiwa ini mungkin tidak segagah Fatimah, tulus tidak setanding Rabiatul Adawiah, Jasad ini tidak setegap Masyitah, namun harapku berupaya mencontohi sedikit kekuatan jiwanya Sumaiyah, mencontohi perawakan mulia Mariam, mejadi wanita faqihah sebijak Aishah, menjadi mar'ah setabah hati Asiah, menjadi srikandi sehebat jiwa Sumaiyyah,Menjadi insan indah seanggun akhlak Rabiatul Adawiyah,menjadi isteri solehah setulus kasih Khadijah,semoga menjadi wanita dan kekasih idaman setiap kalbu pencinta Ar-Rahman

Namun, sedarnya di bahu kita terpikul beban perjuangan, Justeru memerlukan sedikit keteguhan hati, keberanian dan ketulusan, kegagahan dari setiap insan bergelar sahabat, Agar diri dapat terus istiqamah bersama dalam perjuangan Muslimah hari ini, mungkin kita tak sehebat muslimah solehah srikandi islam terdahulu, namun, kita masih punya upaya untuk mencontohi mereka sekadar termampu kita, terus berusaha bermujahadah dalam meraih redha dan kasihNYA, menjadi neraca sebagai muslimah hari esok, permata indah hiasan dunia sementara, menjadi calon solehah wanita bidadari syurga....insyaAllah..

"Ya Allah kau perkuatkanlah hati2 kami moga kami bisa menjadi penegak agamaMU dalam dunia penuh dugaan ini....Ameen..."

This was written by a friend of a new friend i made in friendster. It really captured my heart and it is the exact feelings I have. As we are not perfect and as noble as previous Muslimah but it would be nice to try to be a better person in life. As for now, I'm trying so hard to mend all my mistakes in past years and May Allah guide me and lighten my way but most important is Bless me...things I'm doing, relationships I'm in, nawaitu I have within, people I know and my life. It is hard..very hard...

p/s: Thanks Farhy for lending me ur post.

till then..

...life goes on...

Salam...

I was having my breakfast on a lovely, blessed Friday morning with Mi while watching my favourite Mek in Nasi Lemak Kopi O @ Tv 9. They invited the ex Raihan, Nazri as one of their guest and he was promoting his new album. Well, a new album of his own, not as Raihan. But it is a compilation of old nasyid, as old as before the existent of Raihan. So i thought it must be when he was in The Zikr ( i bet you never heard of it if ure not a fan of nasyid..hehehe).And i was right!! He sang a verse of 'Isteri Solehah' and before he left, he sang this one familiar song which i really love the lyrics..(i always appreciate good lyrics, be it nasyid, or any genre of songs)..I better get back with my revisionnow.So, here i'm sharing with you the lyrics of 'Suci Sekeping Hati'. It is known actually and it is a form of advice, so renung-renungkan....

DEDICATION: Specially goes to my beloved Abang!..my 'Incredible Hulk'...as his journey just started..

 

Suci Sekeping Hati

Sekeping hati dibawa berlari
Jauh melalui jalanan sepi
Jalan kebenaran indah terbentang
Di depan matamu para pejuang

Tapi jalan kebenaran
Tak akan selamanya sunyi
Ada ujian yang datang melanda
Ada perangkap menunggu mangsa

Akan kuatkah kaki yang melangkah
Bila disapa duri yang menanti
Akan kaburkah mata yang meratap
Pada debu yang pastikan hinggap

Mengharap senang dalam berjuang
Bagai merindu rembulan di tengah siang
Jalannya tak seindah sentuhan mata
Pangkalnya jauh hujungnya belum tiba

..Life goes on..